DTHJBFF, RIP, IMYF.

Xiang Nan Zhe Ni.

Happy 2nd Month!

I want to be your favourite hello and your hardest goodbye.


Happy second month bb.
Its has only been two months, yet we've gone through quite alot yeah? Mostly rough patches but its the good ones that keeps us going. I don't ever care much about what others say, so why should you bother as well right? There were many times, you literally broke me apart. But i'm glad we always managed through. Seriously, you're not a very good boyf, but i know there are times when i see your effort. I hope you could be more patient with me though. I know you're you, and i'm never gonna change you unless it's gonna benefit you. Every 11:11, i wished the same wish over and over again. I don't ever want to be here without you baby. I hope it gets better as we go. Even if it gets harder, it won't take away my love, hope its the same for you. Ever heard of this? 'When you love someone so much, you apologise even when it's not your fault because it hurts you and you can't handle fighting with them.' Anyway, long story cut short, just wanna tell you a thanks and I LOVE YOU. <3

I'm fed up, you're one of a kind.

I want your attention now.
& the truth is, you suck hardcore as a boyf, but i love you hardcore.
I h8 you bcos i love u, *pouts. >>>>:

I miss you.

Didn't go to work today, but i'm still very tired. Saw many many faces when i went for work on wednesday, it was located at ang mo kio anyway. I manage to hit the target of 35, even exceeding the expected amount. My legs were breaking, my throat was hurting but it was worth it. Through out all, i was telling myself, i can't give up, because all these is for you. Yes you D, i didn't give up for you. So you can't give up too! I did it, it was just hard work. You can too, please please don't give up.

Remember the first time i saw you?
I had the worst impression of you then even though you looked better then.
Remember how we got to know each other?
You helped me repierce my lip and you were the worst piercer ever i swear.
Remember the first time i went down to look for J after like a year?
Your first sentence to me was : It's you uh.
Remember how the tawhway shop became our place?
We would always meet there, it became our unofficial meeting place.
Remember the first time i ran away from home?
You did so much for me.
Remember the time first time i absconded?
You were the one who was there through it all.
Remember all the times we would quarrel?
I just had a way to make you laugh and give in.
Remember the times we would just sit under your block through the night?
We could just talk about anything and everything.
Remember the times we could just talk on the phone for ages?
You were damn crappy, thinking that your handphone prepaid was forever.
Remember the day you were drunk and you cabbed down to my place?
You waited outside my house for a good 2 hours before i came out. By that time, you were wide awake already and realised that you should have just went home straight instead.
Remember we promised to go church every monday morning?
We obviously didn't keep to it.
Remember how you would always make me go down to just have breakfast with you?
It was always motherfreaking early in the morning.
Remember how i always wanted you to come fetch me from school after i went in gh?
You fetched me to school once, fetched me from school twice. ( I'm fucking touched for that.)
Remember the first movie we watched on July20th?
Ghost of girlfriends past. ( I think that's the title. )
Remember the best friend hug you would give me before i left?
I would give anything just for that now.
Remember how we cried on the phone after you got into that mess?
I was crying in the toilet, you made me cry many times during that period.
Remember how you flared up when you couldn't go for the michael jackson club event?
You got semi-drunk at oasis after that.
Remember how you took good care of me when you brought me to some pub @ geylang?
Who is gonna take care of me now?
Remember how we were suppose to work together and save up to clear debts?
You always woke up late for interviews and there went our jobs.
Remember how we used to share our cash?
You spent money like water. If i didn't control you, you would've died.
Remember how you used to listen to my blog's playlist?
I want you to hear them right now, it's updated, do you know that?

I mother fucking miss you, there's so much we have not done yet. C'mon, you can't leave me right here without you. I need you, do you know that? This is something i've never told you before. You mean alot to me, i want you to be able to know this. Don't be gone even before i have a chance to tell you how much you mean to me. I forgot what was the blog's url that you've created for me, i want you to wake up and tell me right now. Do you know that i got someone to wrote out what you posted for me last time? Cos i was in gh and was not able to use the computer. I even had it saved in gh's computer. Nothing else matters now, seriously. I just want you back in my life, i can't afford to lose you. I'll whatever it takes, to turn this around. Don't give up!