All i want for christmas , is you .

TODAY .
Woke up pretty early in the morning . Guess where i went ? Changi beach to cycle . Big shockers right , i know . Cycled for approximately 14km , could have died . Headed down to junction 8 , wanted to watch alvin and the chipmunks 2 but it was packed . So bought tickets for plaza sing's screening of the movie instead . Freaking cute , good movie to catch . Saw a few gh residents , hahaha ! Went chomp chomp again , and home-d .
Praying hard that home leave would be extended , please please .

Friday morning .
Time check , 12.10 . So , merry Christmas everyone .

Well basically , I’m stuck at home waiting for a curfew call that’s never gonna come . So conclusion is , I’m waiting like an idiot . Everyone out there’s having their share of fun , but me ? Fuck , worst Christmas ever . There’s no internet too , so I’m typing it on Microsoft word before copying it over to blogger tomorrow . Damn this whole jolly wolly shit . I feel like crap , really crappy . :/ But hey . At least I made a huge improvement this time round , I’m not putting the blame on anyone . No wait , that’s a huge lie , I blame everyone . Nah , idon’tknowwwwww . Crap .

Kay , time for seriousness . Had a rather rough day this morning . But for the first time , it wasn’t because of my parents . No , now it’s all for another reason . Some mofo made me clear the garbage back before I was allowed to go home PLUS she invaded into my privacy by READING MY LETTER THAT WAS MEANT TO BE FOR A CERTAIN SOMEONE , FUCK HER . I totally forgot that I had my letter in my angbao . But then again , I don’t think I did anything wrong , it wasn’t against any rules in gh . Who said I wasn’t allowed to write letters to my friends ? Furthermore , it wasn’t for any resident in gh . SO WHY THE HELL DID SHE HAVE TO READ MY LETTER , MY PRECIOUS LETTER . Worse still , my dad was standing directly behind her , so he could see the contents of my letter . How embarrassing ! Maybe I should count myself lucky that she didn’t tear up my letter or something . Oh I forgot , she won’t . ‘COS she’s just a lil woof in front of anyone more superior than her . Sad . Wait , why am I even allowing her to fill up perhaps a quarter of my blog ? She doesn’t deserve this , no she doesn’t . Skip her , and lets move on …

As I was saying , I had a bad morning . But after that , the rest of the day went relatively well . Went home , got changed and headed down to ang mo kio for SUSHI ! ^^ . Ate then walked around hub . I wanted to get that leather jacket from code red . Oh , I’ve gotta remind myself to go back there to get that pair of heels . But decided that I would rather head down to haji lane and see if there were another other alternatives . So down we went , and true enough , things there were way better at a more reasonable price . That’s why I’m happy today , shop shop and more shopping . Too bad I didn’t get to see tq at his workplace though , was looking quite forward to see you after such a long time . Promise you there will be a next time , but do inform me of your working hours dey . Had chompchomp’s porridge for dinner , yumyum . Next item on my wishlist , my lactose shoes and seafood ! Hope it would be fulfilled before I’m going back to gh on the 26th . Having homeleave again on the 31st to the 2nd . Praying hard that homeleave will be extended . Pretty please , Uncle.R .

Now here is perhaps the most important part of the post , my letter . I’ve decided not to pass it to you , it’s embarrassing and I wouldn’t want to see your reaction directly infront of me . So it’s better that your face is behind the screen , yeah . Its to the guy with a million and one identities , but most importantly , the one whom I believed in .
Here goes : ( It’s edited . )

I’ve gotta write it , I don’t wanna keep it in me anymore . Be it that I’m gonna be embarrassed , I’ll still write down what I’ve gotta say . I still do wonder , was everything just a lie ? I still remember my first journey down to 527 , the very first time I saw you , the butterflies I had in my stomach , how awkward I felt . I still remember how we got together , the msn convos we had , the first impression you gave me , the only movie that we watched together but a movie that really showed a lot . But looking back , I feel as though I was nothing special to you , that’s the way you treat girls anyway . I thought you were special , no , I thought WE were special . But I guess that’s just how you wanna make girls feel , your ultimate aim . I thought that we were gonna be able to make through almost everything . Not a forever , but just something really … special that we’ve between us . I can’t say that you’re the first guy that I’ve ever truly loved , but I sure can say that you’re the first that I’ve ever remained faithful to . Not only faithful , but stupidly faithful . Like as though you were my idol or something , NOT idolizing please . The type where I could actually not talk to anyone whom you didn’t like me to , just for you . This may seem nothing to you , or that perhaps another girl did a million more things for you . But for me , it was something , a way that I showed how much I actually cared about us , about where we heading towards . Wait , the whole main purpose of this letter ( more like blog post ) isn’t to state how noble I was , but to actually tell you that I did love you , and I loved you a lot . So please stop saying that I hong-d you . You jolly well know I didn’t and that it was more of the opposite instead . Its not for my reputation’s sake if that’s what you’re thinking , but because my heart always feels kinda heavy when you say that . I still feel jealous , upset , whatever , when you hong others , I still get affected by the slightest things / comments that you make . ( HAMBURGER -.- ) Don’t ask me why , I don’t know why either . But one thing’s for sure , your impact on me is gonna last for a pretty long time . I still remember the time you came into my life and I thought that maybe this could be something . I know that you’ve your girl right now , and you seem pretty happy . Maybe this is finally the time where you would settle down ( which is honestly good , ‘cos I would really be happy for you ) but whatever it is , I just wanna let you know , I’m still here for you as a friend . ( I know you ain’t lacking of it , especially girl-friends -.- But whatever . ) I’m not expecting anything , really . Nevermind , I just wanna say , I’m not gonna let everything that I believe in just slip away like this . I’m still awaiting for our next badminton game together . I decided that it won’t be ‘the next badminton that never came’ but ‘I’m looking forward to it.’ We’ve been walking in different directions for quite some time now and I know that I can’t pretend anymore . I may be nothing to you , but that’s not gonna change the way you’re to me . I’m quite happy that you kept my letter . Be it that you kept all the letters that other girls gave you , or that you went home to take my letter to put it in your wallet when you heard that I was coming down so as to be able to hong me BUT WHATEVER IT IS , I’m just happy that it’s there . I acted like I didn’t care , I even tore it up , ( I’m really sorry ! ) but I do care . Lastly , islamy .

Time check again , 1 am . STILL NO CURFEW CALL , what the hell . If I find out that they mark me as breaking the curfew call , I swear I’ll kill them . Because they didn’t even call , fuck . Waste my fucking time , damn it . Gonna print some pictures now , so goodbye . (:

She's nothing like the girl you've seen before .

They said blogging would kill me , i thought otherwise . I don't care if all are frantically finding me right now , i don't care what the future holds for me . I don't care if all says this is wrong , i don't care if it's really wrong . I don't care what's going to happen tomorrow or the next , i don't care if i'm ruining my future right now . I don't care if this ruins everything , i don't care if this destroys me . I don't care about the decision i make , i don't care if it kills my future . I don't care how you think , i don't care how they think . I don't care if i'm gonna suffer , i don't care if its gonna be a tough road ahead .

Actually , i do care .

And i care plenty much .

It's okay.

It matters to me as how much it matters to you .

Every single day ,

Life's screwed , horrible . I don't even know what i want now , and i've gotta decide something real important in a few days time . Yes , up to now , i don't think i deserve to land myself in gh . I don't think i deserve all these . I didn't say i'm not at fault , but still . So many things have changed in my absence , i can't stand it . It's as though everything fell apart ever since i went in . To my parents , i'm terribly sorry . But shouldn't you be too ? There really was better options . I don't understand , you've been with me through 15plusyears . Surely you would understand my character better than anyone else . But fact is no , you went ahead with what you thought was the best , the only right thing that was applicable for me . You listened to others , but why was it that you couldn't spare a thought for me ? Our relationship is strained ever since i was just a lil kid . How could you expect a 14 years relationship to change within perhaps in 1-2 years time ? It is impossible to me , and you know it yourself too . I can't change my ways immediately , i can't . Its not as though i don't know a single thing . Our sentences were all against each other , thus leading to this . Sometimes i really do wonder , do you guys actually want me ? If not , why ? All i wanted all these while was actually just your love , shown bravely . Have your ever thought that maybe , maybe if the way you treated me now was the exact same way you treated me in my younger days , things wouldn't have turned out like this ? To spend time with you was already so difficult . What we need is actually time , quality time spent together . But now , with such barrels between us , how so ? Like i said many times , you always thought things were better off this way . I can only tell you , its making things worse . I can't turn back time , but if i could , i would've took back every vulgarity i hurled at you in a moment of anger . Thats the only thing i regret , really . But i guess , things have become to a extent where nothing's gonna be salvaged anymore . What's done is done , no such thing as undoing it once again . I'm sorry .

Oh my sweet lord , why have things turned out this way . If it's really a must for me to shoulder all the blames , i'll do so . I really didn't think that things could have possibly changed so much . Everyone is rather different now , it sucks . I'm honestly glad my friendship with the friends i have is still there , but i seriously feel damn sad when i see them like this . Especially you* , you've changed the most . Power was never on your top-ten wanted list , what happened ? Like you say , you've everything you ever wanted , but you're still unhappy , why ? You say you don't know why , i can tell you why . Because all these is just temporary . Thats why you always want more , to achieve higher things . So go find somethings that real . Like real love , friendship . Spend more time with your family members , i mean it . I could have cried when i heard all those you told me earlier on .

And you* ( nono , not the same person ) , all i've gotta say is that , i've reached a point in my trust in you . Even if all is true , you really regretted everything , i still won't give a damn . Not because there's no second try in my vocabulary but because i can see that you still ain't ready to give up your lifestyle . Honestly speaking , i've never given up 100% on you . But whatever you did , whatever you're doing , forces me to . Or shall i rephrase , forced me to . Now i know why kpy could never really trust me after everything . The scenario is about the same , the only difference is that i was really willing to give up all and it was obvious , so unlike you . Till now , you're still the same . Maybe you've reduced , but nevertheless , a small percentage of it is still there . That small percentage that i hate ALOT . It was because of you , that i really turned hard , that i couldn't care less about how other people felt for me . To me , it was a matter of 'so' ? But i'm still different from you , i treated them really well . I haven't fall into that column of being heartless . So lets cut short , the main thing is that i don't really care anymore . Love isn't a thing that is going to be on my mind for a really long time . Especially now , looking at the situation i am in . And you know what's the most hilarious thing of all ? Everything , is what others told me . Your friends and all . But NOTHING is from you , yourself . Nothing . Perhaps i'm just another joke of yours , but so be it . I quitted playing a character in the joke of yours ever since July . I'm sorry for tearing up that note i wrote to you , something which your friends said it mattered alot to you ( again , your friends , nothing from you . ) But when i saw it , it only reminded me of being so stubbornly stupid . That Rebecca whom you managed to 'hong-d' in June , is way gone dude . She's never coming back , her heart's gonna take a real long time before it turns soft again . That's it .

*you , its gonna be a year . I hate myself for not being able to settle down my feelings before i went in . But i'm glad for the forced separation between us now . Maybe we were never meant to be , even though we crossed paths many times . Many times . I just hope all's well for you . I sincerely mean it . Just stay happy . I'm not worried or uptight about you at all . Because your character is really strong . So yeah , take care lil one .

I'M BECKAH .

Sincere apologies , taking a break .

Bye .

Rebecca misses many , especially Vanessa Wee and * ahem .

You might be wondering , when she is coming out .
It's next week (: , have a hell of time manzxzx .


Signing off , Kiyoko .

I'm back for today.

Sentenced to Gracehaven for 2years. Timeout in early December. Anything contact Vanessa. Loveyou all.

Limit .

There's a limit , to a joke .


By the way , Gordon's short , hee !

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MY HEART'S NOT BROKEN ,
& I'LL CRUSH YOURS .

goodbye is a second chance .

Life is !#$%^&* , but at least i'm growing up . :D Worked for a day at expo yesterday . I officially declare that the sales assistants working for hush puppies are hot stuff , rofl . Best , directly opposite me ! ^.^

Fuck , i made so many sacrifices already , all for you . Then i think again , am i going give up , just for you ? I want to see you happy , but i think its time to care about my own happiness as well . I wonder , maybe this time its real , maybe something would come out from it and i'm giving it up , for you . They say there are many out there . But what if i only feel that way towards that very one ? It happened to me once , i don't wish for it to happen again .
Btw Tq , if you're reading this , its not for you , don't mistaken .
You're not my l.o.v.e , he is . Harsh , but true . All these while , you were the one for me . The only one that i ever want . Cheesy fuck .

Oh , my love . Then again , what are you to me ? Nothing .

6september .

Had enough . :D burbye .

Tonight's gonna be a good night .

Currently at Serangoon's lan shop. Surprisingly, i'm not playing imy l4d yet. Rofl. Face is reder than yesterday's. ):

We were as one , for a moment in time .
& it seemed everlasting , that you would always be mine .

That blob of oil .

The second badminton game which never came true , oh well . I miss you , yes i do . & it was no lie , you were suppose to text me you idiot . You know i love you , i know you know , you know you know . ^^v

Insomnia ,

I love that boy with a pretty face .
I love that boy who is only half a head taller than me but claims he's very tall .
I love that boy whom i watched where got ghost with .
I love that boy who always covers his face when it comes to photo-taking .
I love that boy who calls me lady gaga .
I love that boy who always wears shorts to school . ( suppose to wear long pants . )
I love that boy with super long eyelashes .
I love that boy with dimples .
I love that boy who just had his hair cut .
I love that boy who never fails to give me the warmest hugs ever .
I love that boy who loves to squeeze my hands till they hurt .
I love that boy who's a lil gay at times .
I love that boy who loves me too .
I love TQ .

It grew from a simple crush .

All ways or always ?

6 in the morning , i'm bright awake , rofl . Can't get to sleep , a terrible headache woke me up . Kept waking up , so i decided to wake up for good . :X Went down to find kpy yesterday . Then headed down to amk to slack with edmund , mr.shrek . Haha , nope , he ain't fat and green . I wonder if i should get some sleep . But i'm heading down to tampines in an hour or so . ): Nevermind , shall catch a lil nap on the terribly long bus ride down . I've got my snow white dog to accompany me now anyway ! :D Haha . Wow , dad's up already , i'm surprised . I hate that bitch . Kindly keep your comments to yourself , (: I'm only giving your boyfriend face , not you . So what if you know tq longer ? It wasn't even the time frame that mattered . Please , have a good look at yourself before you comment on others . & it doesn't matter what me and tq are . Thats our own love story . You've got your own , so stick to being 'cinderella' in your own story . Nosey ass , fuck ni mama .

Tell me what to do,

me don't wanna love anyone, anymore.
till then, me <3 tq.

84647826's.

Good Girls Gone Bad .

MIA-ing , perfectly safe , rofl .
Don't ask so much , don't need to know so much .
Just remember one thing straight , you are the cause of all these .
Wait , wrong . You 4 are the reason why we two are now like this .
Blame it all on you , :D

21st august , tq !

That's why we'll break though ;

12/08/09.

The first part of the post shall be dedicated to my brother .
Bro , I know you’re worried for me and van . You must be thinking , of all things to play with , why this ? It’s like playing with fire , I know it too . But I don’t know why , why we would go ahead , knowing the consequences that lies before our very own eyes . Curiosity kills the cat ? I think it’s time I agree with that phrase . I know it’s hard for you to believe me when I say I’ll stop and its true that we’ve disappointed you today . So I’m not angry with you for being angry at us . Yes , after reading your text , I know we deserved it . Thanks plenty for making your way down for us when no one else would . I can’t imagine if we were left alone . & a million more thanks for spending me and sister home . We know what we are doing and we do know that it’s the way we want to live our life so therefore I hereby announce that my promise to you shall be kept valid . (: No brother , you’re wrong , promises are not meant to be broken and me and van will prove it . Once again , thanks for everything , not only these . Countless of times , you walked in when the others just walked out on us . The same thinking , I didn’t call you brother for nothing . Rayner and Rebecca , SBND <3>

16/08/09

Came home at 9plus in the morning , slept till 5.19pm , rofl ! Stayed at home the whole day today , really tired thats why . Meeting bread tomorrow and most probably sister . I know the above post is rather long ago but yeah , i saved it somewhere else then i just recovered the document . :D

[b]Beckah ,[/b] Oh Kelsey . said :
the meaning of life ? i can give you a good explanation .

張清林/Elwin- whats the meaning of life'? anyone? 5 bucks for a good explanation!
said : go on..

[b]Beckah ,[/b] Oh Kelsey . said :
life is like a rollar coaster ride , full of ups and downs . you never know when the sharp turn is coming . it can be a gradually up going ride but taking a plunge down after that . so in life , you cant really expect whats gonna happen next , nothings fair . but perhaps just ride on , will a positive mindset to get you through :D

張清林/Elwin- whats the meaning of life'? anyone? 5 bucks for a good explanation! said :
CLAPCLAP... 5 bucks its yours..

[b]Beckah ,[/b] Oh Kelsey . said :
i can't believe that junk just came out of my mind .

Rofl , its rather cool , don't you agree ? :D Okay , time for overdued pictures ! Enjoy , ( its rather small . ) Nights !

Illusion behind torqued reality .

Hey there readers . I'mma out for ktv with my peeps now , will be back later to update you guys , tatas ! :D

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I'M BACK ! Currently at lan shop , cheeers ! :D

PG .

I wonder if my parents read my blog , rofl . PAPA MAMA , YOU SUCKSXZ . Oh well , this shall be a real short one , i need to go and bathe soon . I'm always late , ): Never punctual , rofl . Yesterday was funfunfun and more fun . A secret between me and sister , haha . You made me go lalala , i made you go hahaha . LOL .

Shall blog more later when i'm backkkk , wait up for me alright ! ^^

Drop the past , can't do it ever .

WAIT , i missed out one really important part of the post . I can't help but feel like insulting that useless freak a lil more before i make my way to the bathroom . LIL BOY , you're the lousiest guy i've ever seen on the entire galaxy so far . Don't only use words , use actions . I'M WAITING FOR YOU , honoured ? Beckah seldom waits for a guy , hoho . Don't use others as your mountain , use yourself . YOU remind me of the rubbish bin , your parents must be utterly disappointed to have a kid like you . P/s you might wanna visit the gym soon , your amount of fats , can add up to the size of a hippo . Okay , i admit i'm being mean about your fats but well , you get what i mean . YOU'RE FAT . No wonder you only hang out at the same place everyday , afraid that people will see the bulging stomach you've ? Don't ever go down to town , i'm afraid that your big fat ass might get kicked out the minute you stepped into orchard mrt . Wait a moment , do you even have the space to get on to the public train ? But seems like you're too poor to afford a cab either . Aw shucks , i totally forgot , hippo's dad is working so hard for the hippo family . )': rofl , had fun reading ? :D

Blow the candles out ,

10/08/09
Woke up at two plus in the afternoon , had lunch and was on the computer till dinner time . I shouldn't have been greedy and ate a plate of beehoon directly before dinner time . Totally regret it as i couldn't eat up my dinner , ): But oh well , nothing fantastic for dinner as well . Went down to kovan after dinner to find sister who was with Jasper . Then headed down to find ♥ . Sister had her dinner , slacked and homed . Was on the phone with sister , ♥ & Jason earlier on . Had to hang early , parents are monsters . Apparently sister too , rofl . Been on the computer since then . I want comments !
This road's leading nowhere near my heart .

10 August , 0330 <3 !

08/07/09
Went down to ion to meet vanessa wong with sister . Samuel came along after awhile . Two lil shy lovebirds , rofl . Okay , i shall stop the disiao-ing . Walked to far east , hung out around there . Headed home and to serangoon gardens for dinner before heading down to hougang for flyers issue & the issue with butter's d . Did the flyers with marcus lanzer and sister , a million thank yous to you guys . Then went down to sengkang with brother . Stayed at his house awhile , cabbed home . With the help of bro's $10 , rofl .

09/07/09
Sister woke me up this morning & came over only three hours later in the afternoon . Stayed at home quite awhile before heading down to Pasir Ris . Met up with Shawn a little while before meeting xiaomianbao and jason to accompany them to shanice's birthday over at pasir ris park . Then i shall summarise the following : Slack -> Hougang -> Sent sister home -> Home-d . Continueing with the flyers tomorrow .

To that very special someone :
Lets hope your parents wouldn't die in a car accident but own a disfigured face which is beyond recongnisation . Or perhaps even better , be a vegetable . Oops i forgot , they have a cow like you for a son , who can't accomplish anything but perhaps just produce oil for the family . It ain't gonna get you anywhere far though li boy . P/s lose some weight , you're on the heavier side of the scale already . :D

I dial your digits on my phone ,

06/08/09
Went back angmokio to find shuhui , she remembered ! :D Saw quite a handful of people , Wenting , QianYi , Melissa ++ . I miss you guys truckloads . Went mac with shuhui , she wanted her shaker fries , shakeshake . Then bumped into xueting in mac's toilet , rofl . Had a short chat , went food court , osh bought her teriyaki chicken . Then went down to have beancurd , we are big eaters . By then , she had to go off for tuition and while i waited for sister to come down hub , i bumped into vannyssa ! :D Accompanied her for her desert and she took the same bus as me & sista to bugis . Sadly , she alighted earlier . Oh well , ONGSHUHUI , next thursday , same date with me ! You're booked . Went sisha with lemon and his friends . Apparently it was his friends birthday . Headed down to clarke quay for a little while before heading home . The end .

07/08/09 ( Today )
Went down redhill to find lemon with sister. Stopped at the wrong stop , z . Slacked , had shaker fries , went home . Okay , i know it sounds as though we only went there for awhile but no , i decided to summarised the whole thing . Going to do flyers for yoghurt tomorrow , gotta wake up early . ): At least murphy's helping me ! Thank you so damn much , i owe you one ! ^^v Yoghurtyyoghurt , you better be grateful you mamamofo . Rofl . Then heading down perhaps to pioneer mall to find sister , her boy , & maybe i'll get to see darrius . (: Next destination would be ion at orchard . Vanessa Wong's birthday i suppose . I wonder how will my Sunday be spent , the plans are rather messy now . Too many plans , ): Oh well , sometimes i do wonder . Don Juan of the 21st century , \m/ . Gimme my comments & i'll luvdieyou ! Hehe . Nights !

Believe me , i've been there .

Woke up at one.thirty today , even though i was suppose to wake up at 12.30 . Prepared , then went to pick sista up from school . But i was late , ): and she left for compass already . Didn't want to walk , so i decided to remain in bus 136 , thinking that it was a loop bus . Landed me in Punggol Interchange instead -.- Took the long bus ride home and stayed at home . Wanted to make plans to go out but was just far too lazy . Should be going out tomorrow , have to confirm with ongshuhui . I wonder if she remembers , ): Then my movie on friday , outing on saturday , fully packed day on sunday . Tiring , goodness . Mom was being such a nuisance earlier on when i was on the phone with worm . Damn it , she went to the extremes just to make me hang up . What a bother . Oh so sorry wormy ! Chatted on the phone with lemon before worm . He's such a joke , hoho . I wonder , why does everyone give themselves such weird names nowadays . Mostly regarding food or animals . I just got to know a mr fish today , darrius . Rofl . I'm sticking to beckah ^^v . Had this nickname ever since primary six . Stuck with me till this very day . Rather unique , don't you agree ? Mr Bread , ( lol , another 'food' nickname ) sorry about today . Wanted to go find you , but i'm lazy :X You should know that side of me very well by now . *giggles , so act cute . Meet up soon alright ! Okaydokey people , beckah needs her rest now , she's collapsing soon . Choyyyyy , harhar . I'mma strong girl , & will always be . Out of the million reasons to leave , find a reason to stay . Don Juanism , \m/ .

Harder To Breathe ,

What i would do , is that i would be there for you . Did my entry test today . Far more manageable than i thought it would be . Did fairly well , yeahness . Maths didn't require any calculator . That was how easy it was . But i forgot some parts regarding angles , weak point . Waited for Shawn and then went off to tiongbahru plaza for lunch . That guy skipped the other half of his classes , tsk . He went home and i went back for my interview . The question they asked that got one stunted was : Why do you want to study here ? I replied with a : I want my olevel certificate . Rofl . Dad drove me home , not before i brought him on a merry-go-round . :D Was suppose to go down to bugis with brother and sister but my fatigue got the better of me . Simply dozed off on the sofa while waiting for sister's call . Making it up to her by fetching her from school tomorrow . Woke up at eight am today and i slept at 3.30 am . ): This time , i'm only late for 10 mins , so Shawn didn't really have to wait long for my train's arrival . Heehee . See , i told you things would turn out perfectly alright ! You got everyone & yourself so worried for nothing . Your life in class would turn interesting with me around , i swear . You won't fall asleep anymore , ^^v . Tomorrow will be my only 'off' day . Will be packed with things to do from thursday onwards . Especially on sunday , where i might be watching a movie in the afternoon , clubbing at night and heading down to lemon's chalet after club . Attending a bbq on the following monday . I'm sure i won't be getting much sleep , ): Speaking of sleep , i think i'm going off to bed now . On lemon's orders . Harhar , nights singapore and my beloved snowy beside me . Comments people , now .

Lil Boy ,

Shawn ! You better get out of your mess right now . I still want someone to fetch me from outram every morning , watch me eat my happy meal every morning , disturb you in class everyday . You've gotta be there , its a must ! ): All the best . <3
Anyway people , i'm enrolling in a private school . Woohoo , stress-free . On top of that , i've got myself a job ! Its located at bugis , hahah . Two great news in one day . I swear i'm going to study hard this time round , the school fees don't come cheap . ): Ray shot me this logic : Others pay so much lesser for a degree yet you are paying that for an olevel cert . RAH . Went out for a movie with him on Sunday . Sorry i made you wait for hours ! But hey , you were busy playing your tennis , ain't my fault . :D Watched the hangover . It should be rated m18 instead of nc16 . But then again , i don't think i would be able to get into the movie if it was rated m18 . Personally , i already had loads of doubt about getting in regarding the nc16 . But in the end , she didn't look twice at me . Dumb , made myself freak out for nothing . Overall , neat show . Went back to AngMoKio Secondary today to take back my report book . Needed for the registration purposes . Saw Shawn and YongZhi . Luckily recess was over already , ha . Mrs Lai said i was acting as though she didn't exist and could continue acting . Rofl . But when i realised i'm never coming back to that school , i felt that my heart plunged a little . ): Went down bishan to have my photosize picture taken . Another requirement for the registration . Then went down to sengkang , met brother first then went to fetch sister from school . Headed down to Haiji Lane , then to bugis for my job interview . After all , went to xmianbao's house area to slack with worm and co . Í'm damn tired now , woke up at eight this morning . Supposed to meet Shawn at outram but he ended meeting me at farrer park because he was early . Oops , i'm sorry ! Nono , i know you won't blame me for this lil incident . I'll make it up to you , so please don't go in eh ! I know its not within your say but plead for a lighter sentence at least ? You can do it ! :D Taking entry test later in the morning , off to bed now . Comments are wanted , big time .

Infinite cheating .

Went back to school yesterday . No , not into the school , near there . Lucky for me , i didn't bump into any teachers . I wouldn't like the idea of conversing with them . Met up with Shuhui and Michelle . My two darlings , i know what you want the best for me and the concern you showed , i'm really touched . (': Saw my darling Mario on the way to hub , you looked just the same . Haha . Went off for lunch at the sushi place with shuhui , i love you dearly girl . Then walked around hub awhile before her tuition started . Had fun , really . Imma meet you two every week , its a promise . Thanks Shuhui , you're one of the best true friends one has in their life and i'm glad you appeared in mine , ^^v . Went off to yishun to find yoghurt brother , shall not mentioned what happened since its all over and i guess my shoutings at him was enough . We're quits bro . (: Rushed back for my last bus home . Night was terrible , mom and me had one of those arguements again . If an apology could heal everything in a moment's time , it would have done so , years ago . I'm angry at you for distorting my view of the world , the image of a home . I tried to put some balance in your glorification of her , but i guess it was all wasted .
I got woken at 11.15 by dad , telling me that my uncle would be dropping by at 11.45 . Well , he came 12 . But i was really pissed by the poundings on the door made by my maid in order to wake me up . I really hate it when i get disturbed in the morning , especially since i don't see the need to wake up early now that school is terminated for me . I'm going off to ktv now , finally getting to see Worm , and seeing Xiaomianbao again . Oh my , i don't really like to sing , ain't having the qualities of a singer . I can't sing for nuts , ): Then meeting Kahliang for a drink at clarke quay later in the night , great one . Sisha and perhaps catch a movie with Ray tomorrow . ^^v . Beckahwantscomments .

Peeeeektures ,

729546's . Went central earlier on , had tawhuay then nasi lemak . I swear i needa get these fats off me soon . Cycling at east coast anyone ? ^^ . Imma go watch the haunting with ray and shawn soon , yeahness . But maybe that would mean that i watch the movie twice . ): Alright , i guess its all worth it . The movie better be nice . Harry Potter , hmmm . Watched it the other day with Shawnthechick4sale . Harhar . I hate the ending , why did he have to dieeee . Sad luh , first movie i watched with a sad ending . People always asked why is it that every movie ends with a happy ending , but once they watch a movie with a sad ending , which do they really prefer ? I honestly prefer a happy ending one , no matter how cliche it may get . Counselling again tomorrow , this time , with the head in charge . I honestly hate her , she's freaking guailan , damn it . I wonder how it will go , had enough of all these bullshit . If counselling could solve everything , it would have done so , years ago . I already gave up , i don't see the point of trying anymore . I'm happy with how things are now , so ? Alright , enough of all the sad stuff , i've gotta remain positive , p.o.s.i.t.i.v.e . Meeting xiaomianbao tomorrow , i hope . :X Nights everyone , & leave a comment , thankyouverymuch .

Honey be my sweet spot ,

Slept rather early yesterday . 3am fall asleep like a pig already . Was texting Shawn & Ray half way , hoho . I'm so sorry eh ! I know i'll be forgiven anyway ^.^ Totally broke nowadays , keep spending it away on things that i don't really need . But spending on food will always be worth it , imma food lover ! Fuck blogger , it has been having problems . I can't upload my pictures , rah . ): && i've been having mosquito bites . I suspect there is a mosquito lurking somewhere in my roooom . Kill it asap someone ! Okeh , randomsxz . Rofl . Going out to meet yoghurt for tawhuay soon , burbye .

Whatever it takes ,

Greetingsxz , haha . New blog , COMMENT ME ! Spent the whole day at home today . Woke up rather late anyway . The rain made it so nice to sleep , didn't wanna get up . Cooked cereal prawn for sister and family . I think it turned out rather okay . Can be improved though . Have not blogged for a pretty long time already . Oh well , many things can happen in a short time . But let the past be the past , look forward to the future . Lastly , i love 729564 . Byebye ! ^^v